Humble Pie

This post is probably my hardest post to date to write… I have a HUGE confession. Remember when I lost all that weight and I looked amazing. You would think that after reaching that level of fitness I would maintain and be super stoked to stay itty bitty forever. But that is not the nature of this post. I like many of you slipped. I moved, summer hit, and I was crazy busy entertaining kids all day. Also add in the fact that  being away from all my friends and family was really hard. I felt isolated and alone. I turned to food. I ate my feelings as they say.

I can relate to Gru! I was kind of in a dark place. I have met and made lots of great friends thus far, but it takes time to build super close friendships. Then the Holidays hit and the eating continued. I continued to workout religiously- that is super embedded in me! But for me to stay my slim and trim self – Nutrition is VITAL!! I am not one of those lucky few that can eat whatever they want as long as they work out. I have to eat right AND workout to reach my goals. This has been a hard pill to swallow. So during this time of back sliding I have learned a few things about myself. I will use these lessons to be Response “able” I can choose how I respond and respond differently to stress and cravings. No more EXCUSES!

Remember in Season 1 or 2 of Vampire Diaries when Stefan gets a taste of the good stuff (real human blood) and becomes an addict out of control, until Catherine and Damon lock him up to detox him. I feel like that with sugar! I am a sweets girl, so I need to revisit my relationship with it! I need to cleanse my body and eat clean till it’s out of my system and then I can maybe reintroduce it back in small amounts without losing total control!

This is me at my lowest weight of 122 lbs — I looked and felt great! I felt good because I fed my body right!!!

This is me at my current weight of 139 lbs ,  I’d like to lie and say all the weight gain is from muscle while attempting to do Beach Body’s “Body Beast” program…. Although I feel like muscle was gained and I am “tighter” this is not what I want to look like! I realize I am not fat! I am just not where I personally would like to be! I feel like total crap, because that’s what I have been putting in my body. I felt so much better when I fed my body right.

So stick with me, don’t give up on me! I will re-access and now that I laid it all there for the whole world to see! I am committed to get back down to my lowest weight! I will be posting my journey on Instagram and Twitter so feel free to follow along there! I will also be posting updates here on the blog! And if you to want to lose weight and need extra motivation feel free to join my FREE Facebook Challenge group!